Missing you...

The year is about to end and I just got my new Starbucks planner. Looking back to the past months, I remember the people I lost. They are so dear to my heart. Sometimes I still cry remembering them. Wishing that I could have just one day with them. Hug them, tell them how much I miss them and inform them the good news, I'm now the epitome of my name, FREEDOM. If I could turn back time, all I want to do is say I LOVE YOU and tell you not worry. Everything will be fine... I miss you!

There are days that I think of you and still feel the warmth of your smile and divine comfort of your hug. The weird thing is that every time I think of you, you still make me smile. And sometimes when I'm feeling down I would read your text about what you've said about my smile.
Sometimes I would imagine the sound of your laugh that would echo in my heart. But what can a person do if they're far apart.You would do your best to move forward and hope for the other person happiness. I've come to the point that all I can do is HOPE and not expect. Pray that our paths would cross again then smile at each other without any regrets and say "It was nice to see you."  I miss you dearest friend.

Lost in Translation

For the past few days, I've been yearning for silence. I felt that something was missing. I felt restless and uncomfortable in someway that I couldn't explain. Then, I talked to my good friend "Tater" (not real name) and expressed my yearning for silence. I could barely grasp the idea that I needed to stop, listen and figure things out. I told him that I just want to sit on a bench, look at the world and savor the silence. Just listen to the world and keep still. I guess being surrounded by people all the time and talking all the time makes you miss the time savoring your own  . I kinda lost myself in translation. I really need to learn to leave work once I logged out from the system. Savor the time to be still, breathe and tell myself that I've done a great job at the end of the day.

I was watching MTV Inside Lady Gaga Outside. She said that there was a point while she was doing tours she kinda lost herself. She said "I have been traveling around the world and it's getting smaller. I miss New York." She knew that she wants to be even better in her craft. She wants to give more creativity and passion for her fans but she was kinda loosing her touch. She was too immersed to what she loves. She had to stepped back, go home to New York spend time with family and friends and savor her alone time with her bicycle, Henry. She said whenever she rides Henry around town, she feels that the world is bigger because it will take her a long time to get back where her house is located. Not like when she in a plane or in a car, she felt the world is smaller and linear. She takes the time to look around her and see the bright neon lights of New York.

As she was telling her story, I realized something. I was feeling the same way. I was too immersed at work, the thing that I'm passionate about, teaching/training people. I'm confided in the four corners of the training room. I forgot that I need to breathe and focus on myself. I need to breathe so I can even be better on what I do.

I guess one of the things I miss is to explore the world on my own. Going to a place that I've never been to and get lost... get lost in translation... in a good way. But I know I don't have that much leaves to explore the world in full blast. So I need to find balance first with work, being a grad school student and play.

I need to find my inner peace first... silence...

closing time for 2010...

2010...

been there...

done that...

lessons learned...

shed tears...

endured an unbearable pain...

closed the chapters in my life and moved forward...

2010...

learned more about myself...

spent time... time for solitude...

for a moment i was at peace...

spent time reflecting and discerning...

2010...

traveled a lot...

learned a lot about life...

saw the undeniable beauty of the Philippines...

learned to survive on my own...

got lost... laughed and... 

found the way on my own...

met artists, mountaineers, surfers, and other unique individuals along the way...

saw their beauty and how beautiful to be different in their own little way...

2010...

embraced the warmth and support of my family and friends...

they saw my beauty and my strength...

commended my achievements...

Now... 2011

new beginnings...

adventures await...

the adventurer is hungry for more exploration...

challenges both personally and professionally...

ready to take risks...

even more determined to climb, to dive, to surf and to survive what life will throw and offer me...

I will continue to live and love life to the fullest...